There are so many things that I'd like to tell you, you my readers, my supporters and my friends. And yet sometimes I don't even know where to start. Do I talk about my first published novel Pulse of Heroes, or do I talk about what came before it, or after? At times my mind just whirls with so many different thoughts and I try and figure out what is really important, if any. Maybe I'm just a lunatic ranting away in a lonely room, or maybe I can't forget the many letters of support and praise over The Pulse Myth Series, and how so many of you have told me that reading it has actually changed the way you look at life. Or when some of you who are in pain whether physical or emotional, fought to finish the books because it gave you solace and a retreat from your daily struggles? If I have the power to do this, I keep telling myself, that I must go on. But it's hard folks, really hard. With so many books to choose from out there and with so many amazing authors out there, I sometimes wonder what will make one choose to pick up one of mine? And getting people to write reviews, which is the ONLY tool that someone like myself has to promote my work, even from good friends and family, is like squeezing water out of a rock. I really don't think anyone but another author truly understands how imperative and essential those reviews are for us to be able to continue writing. We need them on AMAZON, Barnes and Nobel, Goodreads and anywhere else where you can holler it out that you love our stories. With so many amounting bills and me working full time and only making an average of a penny an hour, I sometimes just want to give up. Hang it up and say I gave it my best, and now it's time to invest in real clothes and go out in public and maybe answer phones, or make appointments, or even a latte or two. Nothing wrong with that, done it before.
Then... THE PULSE LIVES thoughts:
There's another thing that I wanted to let you good folks know. Before I wrote Pulse of Heroes, I never ever thought I'd write, let alone publish a novel. I always wrote whether on paper or in my mind, but in terms of work and writing, my real interest was in writing screenplays, which is a complete different monster than a novel. I have written and completed two full-length screenplays. One is called "Condemned Playground" and is about the coming of age story of three teenage girls from broken families, and is based on some real life events. My other one, the one that is the pre-cursor to Pulse of Heroes is a true historical screenplay called "First King" based on King Saul and his daughter's falling in love with the famous usurper King David. I believe that without this screenplay Pulse of Heroes would have never been written. I realize that many of the characteristics that Michelle has in The Pulse Myths are almost identical to that of.... you guessed it, "Michal" the ancient name of King Saul's daughter. Also, many of the characteristics that our beloved hero Elliot De-Costa is comprised of, are a direct combination of traits that King Saul, King David, and Prince Jonathan have. Of course Elliot is also sprinkled with Immortal magic dust ;) unlike the real humans of long ago.
I sometimes wonder if I should publish the First King screenplay on its own, or if I should just wait for that six million dollar movie deal? Reading a screenplay is very different than reading a novel. A screenplay is stripped of most descriptions and ambiance, besides a few hints and stage instructions that the writer includes. To read it and get the full picture and atmosphere, the reader must imagine it all and fill in the blanks. The hard work in a screenplay is making every single word count. Every single word that every character says has to fit their personal attributes and hint not just at what they are saying, but what they are feeling behind the words. That's obviously where good and talented actors are needed, to convey these unspoken words, and to show the audience the strength and emotion behind them. So do I publish it for you to read? That's my question...are you curious to see what you'd pick up from reading the screenplay? And if you are a Pulse fan, you will definitely recognize some of the themes and happenings in it, because Elliot has taught Michelle a lot about his life so many years ago...would you know where Elliot's immortal existence would have fit into a real historical setting? ;) ;)
And just on a side note. There is more Pulse Historia in the workings. The boys want to come back and tell you more of their adventures....again it might take me longer to finish as I have to spend more time doing "other things that pay the bills."
AND if you're interested in a little romance and heat from twenty three year old CLAY WILDER as he finds out the difference between lust, sex, and love, not to mention how society treats him for falling for a woman older than he, and how he deals with his not so easy life of sports and a drunk father? Coming very soon is my "New Adult" novel 86 Special !!!
Thank you for your time
Happy First day of SPRING!!! and The band is still playing, so what are we to do but dance and try and keep up with the beat?
A. Jacob Sweeny